you're just asking for trouble.

dear mom and dad.
i swear, that the both of you are asking for trouble from me.

you call me selfish, not caring about how you guys feel when i go against your will, but do you, EVER try and look at the situation from my point of view? fuck no.

when i asked you if we, my brother and i, could go out to this place with a group of like fifteen, you didn't think for ONE second before responding. you just said no, thinking ONLY of your own fears and whatever the fuck else you have against it. we wanted to go out, have fun, it's not even VERY likely that we'll get bashed in such a public place with so many people around. that's fucking crazy shit you asians are so paranoid about. ever heard the quote, "the more you fear something, the more higher the chances of it happening"? i guess not.

i could've lied to you about it, and just said we're going to see a movie. but no, i wanted to be mature and be honest, to discuss it. but no, you, you don't even fucking think about us. what we want, why and how it makes us feel. it's all just your opinion, what YOU say. and there's no way for us to change that. now who's selfish, huh?

fuck you both. you wondered why i always went against you last year, you REALLY wonder. so here, i'll tell you - it's because you restrict me too much. the more you tell someone not to do something, it only makes them want to do it more. that's why i 'rebel' against you, because it feels like revenge. and when i do it, it makes me feel good. so i'm going to keep doing it, everytime you say no.

and it's not like i've never tried talking to you about it, it's just YOU don't want to fucking listen. all you hear is yourself and your stupid thoughts. that's not my fault, and that's why things never stay 'okay' or close to 'good' in our house for very long. it's not because of what i do, it's because of you, and your selfishness.

my attitude, reflects how you treat me.