bleh

my mind is so full of rage, but i don't know what to write. my mind's full of confusion but i don't know where to begin. i don't even know how to describe how i'm feeling, cept that i am extremely frustrated about everything.

i'm over everything being like this. the past who knows how many weeks, seem to be just getting worse, i can't see an end to it. friendships are dying and trust is fading, and yet life seems to still be able to get more complicated.

i don't even know who i can talk to or who i can just chill with at school anymore. i feel like those i'm surrounded around the most don't even care about me, they don't make any effort. i've been so distant with everyone, barely talking, and no one even bothers to ask if i'm okay.

my head hurts from all this thinking, but i want to know what the cause of this is. i say i believe everything happens for a reason, but what is the reason that i must suffer like this?

i want to meet some new people, have fun and get distracted from whatever it is that's causing my life to be so shit.