alone.

nobody's ever around when i need them.

by myself in my room - light's out, door's closed. no one's home, it's still light outside, but i'm here, in my room, all by myself. i feel so sad, i want to talk to someone, someone whom i don't have to pretend with, someone i can just reveal this me and for them to make me feel okay; to distract me.

i tried contacting this one person. with him, i knew i could be myself, with him i knew i could talk about whatever and know that by the end of the conversation i'd be feeling a lot better. but there was no response.

i'm trying to think of someone else. but i feel like there is no one else, except this one other guy. but i don't know how to contact him. i've got his number, facebook and msn etc. i want to talk, have a proper conversation now - not wait forever for one reply, but i'm scared to call him.

i feel so alone. it feels like i have no one. of all the 2390849823049 or however many people in this world, i can't find one person to make me feel better. that's so sad, it makes me want to cry.