i'm sick of trying to please him.
i'm sick of trying to be who he wants me to be; the perfect daughter, with perfect grades; constantly studying, always home; never in trouble , the innocent one; someone he's proud to tell his friends about.
i hate being given the silent treatment, especially when i haven't done anything wrong. i hate how when i am close to being who he wants me to be, everything is fine, but the second i do something wrong, it's all my fault. i'm just so over it all, i don't see the point anymore.
everything lately seems to be my fault, and everything i do seems to be wrong. my grades aren't high enough, my friends are bad influences, i'm doing 'bad things', and apparently i've got a bad attitude.
i'll never be that perfect daughter he wants me to be, i'll never reach those standards. i will never be happy if i pretend to be someone i am not; she is just not me. but he won't ever be proud enough of me with me just being me; i guess it's a lose-lose situation.
i'm sick of it, i've had enough. i'm done with trying to be daddy's perfect little girl.
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:l i have no idea how i managed to stumble onto your blog but i thought i'd just share my thoughts on your situation;
ReplyDeletei feel exactly the same, like there's nothing i can do about it and stuff; not being good enough, not living up to my parents' expections but i also realised that it's all for the best, i mean of course our parents love us and want what's best for us, they don't want you to go through the hard life that they've been through etc. but if they're really pushing you hard then that's wrong, just remember that as long as you try your best then no one can ever talk you down.
sorry i wrote so much but yeah, hope this kinda helps.
lol, it's okay. and thanks.
ReplyDeletei also apologize for my late reply.
i understand what you're saying; i understand that they do it out of love & care. but even knowing that, it can still be too much, especially if you're just not having the greatest day.
despite the fact that you can see their reasons, sometimes you just can't help how you feel. or knowing that you've tried your best, but feel you've disappointed them.