& in that split second..

Ain't gonna show no weakness,
I'm gonna smile and tell the whole world I'm fine.
I'm gonna keep my senses,
But deep down
When no one can hear me
Baby I'll be crying for you ..

why does it take us weeks to pick ourselves up, only to fall back down within a second? is it because we raise our hopes too high? there's curiosity for the reason in which our hopes have been risen and we try to avoid it, that emotion that comes with it, but is it possible to avoid what makes you smile not only on the outside, but also within?

we spent so long cleaning the mess they left us in; days, weeks, even months. and then they do something to give us hope, only for it to be shattered the next day; leaving you in pieces again..
it leaves us lost and confused; unsure of what to do yet again.

i thought i had succeeded, i thought i was over you .
& then we start talking again, and those emotions reappear.
tell me, what should i do? coz i dont wana imagine my life without you, but how can i handle being just friends?
my feelings, they will fade, but they will not completely go..