right back where i started ..

You know that feeling, where you thought you were over it, thought you could finally move on? You know how you went days without a thought of them bringing you down; you feel so proud of yourself, you believe again, you're finally smiling; yeah, you know that feeling?

But woah, suddenly, you're by yourself with nothing to do and out of no where, their face comes to your mind, and its like you're right back where you started. You wonder about the last few days; was i really over it, or simply distracted? You wonder why you believed their lies, their beautiful lies.. the whole “we’ll still be friends” and “i still care about you” shit, the typical break up shit. damn you feel like such an idiot.

Even though they’ve caused you so much pain, and don’t even bother talking to you anymore, you just can’t let go.. & why not? because it's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone, if your heart still does..

Doesn’t it piss you off, how you don’t hate them at all, not even a little bit? How they make you feel like the biggest fool, hating yourself instead.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but an entire lifetime to forget them.