new hopee

i feel good, like really good. i'm full of hope, with images of how things will turn out. i'm excited, like really excited. boy you have no idea what you've just done.

i know it's still a while away, but i never thought we'd plan anything so soon. you know i've wanted to see you for so long, it's been so many months. and now that we've set a date, i'm just really excited, but really nervous at the same time. i have these plans of how things will go, all these scenarios and ways of how the day will end. i probably shouldn't but i can't help it, i've been waiting too long. it's seriously time to change our status', i honestly don't see what's stopping us now; if it's meant to be, we can make it work. i mean we've been able to make whatever we are last this long so far right? why not make it official?

i hope we keep things good, i hope nothing stops, i hope it doesn't all change before the day. i don't care if it'll just be us, or with your friends, as long as i get to see you. for the next couple of weeks, i'll have something to look forward to, i really hope nothing changes it. i'm loving how things are going so well again; i'm loving the faster replies, i'm loving how our conversations are feeling a little bit like the old times. i really miss that, and i really miss you.

yeah, sure, i have some concerns. like what if i'm just lifting my hopes up and then get disappointed? what if it doesn't happen, what if something comes up? but you know what, right now. i just want to enjoy this good feeling. it's been a freaking long time !

ps. please don't disappoint me?