you're like a flash of lightning

why is it only sometimes that i feel like you want me the way i want you? why are we on the same page, only when you feel like it?

how do you go one day, without talking to me? because it's killing me inside. how can you hold your emotions so well, because i can't. how do you act like you don't care, because even when i try my hardest, i still can't act. it's not fair on me, to be treated like this. the days when you feel like talking, you'll always reply. then there's days when you just don't reply for ageees - like now..

i don't know what to think. part of me, wants to just forget about you and move on. but there's another part of me, that says 'no, keep holding on'. you've had me like this for so long and it doesn't seem like it's going to get any better, we're just going around in circles.. but i can't just ignore my feelings for you; so what should i do?

i want to know if you can see us going anywhere. because even though i said i'd wait for you, i don't want to wait for something that most likely won't happen. be fair to me, let me know how it is for you.