urghh.

i'm sick of this whole two way thing; it's driving me crazy. it's so annoying, how just one thing can make you feel two things at once.
how you can feel stressed but yet also feel proud of yourself about something. how you can miss someone whilst wishing you didn't care. how you can love something all the while wishing you didn't. how you wish things would go one way, but are going the opposite.

don't you hate how you don't know what you want to do about things, but know what you SHOULD do? how majority of the time, our wants & needs are completely opposites? how you know if you went with what you needed, it would hurt you. but going with what you wanted, does not differ? but how sitting in between and doing absolutely nothing about it, continuing like nothing's wrong, only makes you feel even worse?

why is life so complicated? why must it be a bitch?